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All of it could have been avoided.

September 7, 2011 Carly Findlay 1 Comment

I had to ensure that my woe is me post wasn’t front and centre for a week. I didn’t want visitors – or god forbid – people who know me – to think I am always sad. Because I am not. But I think emotions can falter, and hell, my strength is part of what got me into this mess.

So I’ve been looking for meaning in everything. Star signs. Calendars. The awful thoughts when I am alone. I feel like songs were just written about me. Or by me in another life.

There’s the obvious and current Gotye which sort of applies:

“But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing”

And then there’s this gem, the track after the obvious. Gotye’s Eyes Wide Open.

The chorus makes me think about what I’ve done. Knowing the outcome and danger of the situation and doing it anyway. And I think of the well intentioned advice received, and how I was headstrong. I never convinced myself I was fearless. I was shit scared of the reality. Gotye sums it up well: “And the saddest thing is all of it could have been avoided.”

I walked the plank with my eyes wide open.

“So this is the end of the story
Everything we had, everything we did
Is buried in dust
And this dust is all that’s left of us
And only a few ever worried

While the signs were clear
They had no idea
You just get used to living in fear
Or give up
When you can’t even picture your future

We walk the plank with our eyes wide open

We walk the plank with our eyes wide open we
(walk the plank with our eyes wide open we)
Yeah we walk the plank with our eyes wide open we
(walk the plank with our eyes wide open we)

Some people offered up answers
We made out like we heard
They were only words
They didn’t add up
To a change in the way we were living
And the saddest thing
Is all of it could have been avoided

But it was like to stop consuming’s to stop being human
And why’d I make a change if you won’t?
We’re all in the same boat
Staying afloat for the moment

We walk the plank with our eyes wide open
(walk the plank with our eyes wide open we)
And we walk the plank with our eyes wide open we
(walk the plank with our eyes wide open we)

With our eyes wide open we
We walk the plank, we walk the plank

So that is the end of the story”

I’ll be ok soon. And probably less cryptic too.

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  1. Robyn says

    September 10, 2011 at 11:37 pm

    Hi Carly,

    I'm Robyn, one of the girls who came up to say hello to you today in Melbourne Central. I have to admit I haven't read your blog in a few months so I have a lot of catching up to do. It was great to meet you though, and I wish you all the best.

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